ADVICE THAT REMAINS IN SOUL..

I think that totally people divide into two groups:

1- A wide group of people ( 90%) which continue their life routinely without feeling the need to know more or deeper ,because of this they don't think deeply about things , people , themselves and the quality of their doings and will accept so many things without knowing the essence of that really .

2- 10% remaining that cannot continue without thinking deeply about themselves, their acts, and their life and... . It is because they are usually idealist and more sensitive, so they feel and see more than its usual, and can't close their eyes into so many thing.

For the second group everything will start with a question that is not obvious at first and will expand to everything, (it doesn't mean that the first group haven't this, they have but won't influenced by this deeply or for a long time). After this, the person will fall in doubt about so many things, which up to this time accept automatically without his/her direct choice in them containing: some duties, belief, routine acts, religion.......(depended).

These need to a new look at them and considering its right and wrong and its qualities. After this, you can define yourself, your aim and your personal life, which all will change with this. New definition need to think deeply, this need to experience your thoughts, which needs to new knowledge about real fact for upgrading your soul.

Other things must consider are:

1- Everyone and everything is on changing but among these, a stable fact is, which will never change and it's unique for everyone. It's in your heart and can be found by yourself.

2- it's just you in this finding, others just can support you or supply media for you or perhaps can be your consultant but discerner is just you who choose, so you must accept and tolerate all its bitters, sweets and hardness. So don't wait for anyone whom change your condition because they are not in your heart, nor in your mind. (They are there as themselves not as your rule).

3- You told me want to catch things soon, also afraid of loosing your capability. I think it's impossible because you have it instinctually, but if you can't write now like before it's just because you don’t want to train your ability nor improve its quality. These need to time, effort and new experiences.

If I hadn't seen your picture, I would never said these. I know writers well and i'm sure that you can be one of them, I don't judge just on face but you have involved eyes, which almost writers have, perhaps explained like this:

Both writers and poets mentally and actually are among different people and different condition and are sensitive toward them, also influenced by them. The difference is: the poets are influenced with their feelings about these, write by looking from upward to them, and can't stay among them, but writers are influenced by their mind then feel them. It means that they firstly analyze them and for writing will stick among them and look at them nearby, so are more involved with these.

You are among the second group, just you don't study enough. If you can't write it's because your soul need to new things because of its changing and you ignore it to be and to do like before. You can't do things automatically anymore because the need to knowing fact is inside you now whether you ignore it or not!

As I experience in another field, I think for being a writer:

At first, you must know different styles and masters on them, read about each style and criticize them and consider your viewpoints in relation with other critical viewpoints.

Secondary must know different people from different nationality and culture to find your total rules and knowledge, also to dominate on them for using wisely in your stories. To reach it you must consider human being since first civilization and think about their thoughts by what is remain from them. At last, all these cause to reach the true definition of yourself and a fact in your own viewpoint.

After all these, you can reach to your special style in writing. I think a successful story is which everything on this is meaningfully as a representation of writer's thoughts and purpose

Be sure that you must move and decide yourself because it's your own life, and from this age you are directly responsible for all these. So it's better to live in your moments with all changes and unpredictable happenings and try to pass each day as it's perfection, then surely the future will be as you want, as it must be.

I hope to be successful.

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SHIMA wrote me this when i was puzzled.